What to do when your back is against the wall.

Everyday it's a test of fill and faith. I have so much faith in those who also have faith in me. There is so much I wish was perfect but perfect is a ordinary thing. I told myself I would never never conform to the masses. To be like every other sheep amongst the massive herd. Why be what everyone want when you alone could be a shining star that so different from everyone around you. As told by many elders and people of great accomplishment have been the opposite than the norm. I will never be one of the masses a reproduction of what the world thinks is what should be. I'm a free spirt a person of everlasting change one who will never walk in the conforms of the everyday what's expected of us. We are free, free to live how we want and by the will of our own beliefs. I strive to be the utmost different from everyone and anyone. Why fall inline when you can lead the line. I'm a leader not a follower. This I will take with me for many many years. For I am the beginning and the end of the old and new. I'll always be the new. In with the new and be a leader. Followers are always behind others waiting or the next best thing. Why wait when you can be the next best thing or be the creator or influence. Please never take my rebel state of mind as a reason to fear. I'm a believer and creator of new and ever changing new ways of life. I take no extremist outlook nor a change to the peace of life. But I will forever walk to the beat of my own drum. Please know I'm a great person. One day a great role model. I pray many will follow in there own way. There own drum beast out there. So listen and soon you may hear the beat. That was sent just for you just for YOU. Along with many others. Make the greatness we all strive for. Be unique be free be. JUST BE!!!! You....

What I was writing about yesterday went all wrong.

As I recall my last post was to do about how to go into tests with the utmost positivity and positive thoughts. I was going to test for well i can say an unknown amount of tests. I arrive to have only to write an essay So while I was in the testing facility. I will quote the words that were said to me. "this is a test of where you need to be placed." "So there is nothing wrong, with getting something wrong." "Then the test, will scale what your next question should be." "Set to be not to hard or to easy." "so there is no problem with failing, it then helps you know where you have to brush up, and learn before you can move on." that then made doubt and negative thoughts enter my mind along with others. Then you are then ok with the fact of failing. Remember that College's thrive and live off our money. Money for classes you need due to placement tests. So if you can take from where I let all seep in and spoil my testing. Well have a good day I have to realize that my dream has just been kicked out from me.

Pagan days.

So on this day I sit to prep for a round of test that truly have no good way of studying. So should I dare to say a prayer or spell that may easy me threw. But in the end its always down to the common scenes of the task at hand for me or you. So I'll do my best and go in with positivity and know I'm truly the smartest in the room and will never have to feel beneath. For I am goddess and with that I know I'll be great whit no matter what the test them selfs read. So as I now know not to fret my mind will ease. Knowing its only a test to tell me where I am the best. See with the loss of negativity there is the greater power of positiveness. The law of attraction says to be positive and think positive so then to attract the positive and only receive the good while the negative falls to the wayside. An it and harm none. For so as above so below so within so without. I cast away my worry thought to a time and place that can not return for I am one with the gods and goddess so negative can not dwell in me for I am what I will my self to be. I am a achiever I am smarter then one who doubts there own abilities. For I am me an will what the god an goddess have possessed me to be. I am positivity.